rain rain go away

i have this special thing with rainy days. everything is so quiet and peaceful on rainy days. the pace of life seems to have slowed down a little to enjoy this watery splash. staring at the window and observing the water pattern. looking through this thin water layer, thinking it would be good if i could just lie on my bed with my rainy days playlist plugged in.

rain rain go away. come again sometime next week.

not much time left

i am starting to get used to living alone in this big dorm room i have now. adapted to the i-have-to-do-everything-by-myself life style now. i am not sure if i would be used to it when i go back to singapore with my parents poking their noses into almost everything i do. but after the phone call i had ytd, i am glad i am at japan now.

away from the chaos and trouble that is brewing or rather has happened. at least i am staying out of it. i cant be bothered or rather i choose not to care. i just want to enjoy the remaining one more month i have in japan and finish my fyp.

i just got home from a takoyaki lunch. 8 huge tako, 1 red bean paste cake and super yummy starbucks although it was a little too sweet for me. i am loving the ambiance at the starbucks branch. it is really a nice place to literally sit back and enjoy my sunday. looking at the cars through the window, just daydreaming and looking at the live stage. if only singapore has available land space for that, maybe i will love starbucks a little more. i wish my future house is something like that although i love living in a city.

this is random.

most beautiful thing

would you ever lie to make someone feel better? nobody can escape from his eyes. he knows exactly when you are lying. he can see through you by observing your reactions to his questions. think twice before you respond. but dont show your true feelings on your face or in your behaviour.

be sincere and stop hiding behind that mask of yours. being true to yourself is the most beautiful and hardest thing to do. if you always show or tell others exactly what you are feeling, there is no way you can hide from them because they can read you like a book. and people will describe you as being frank or even worse insensitive because you wont know who you have hurt along the way. so you have to make a choice between honest and PR skills. seriously, i dont know what i will pick. but i am definitely more on the honest side.

i guess being a child is the best. you dont have to worry about bringing money back home. you dont have to think how to make the next meal possible. you dont have to learn how to hide your feelings. they just cry when they are sad. they just laugh when they are happy. often, adults will forgive and forget whatever a child does no matter how naughty they can be. but when an adult makes a mistake, it is just so hard to forget and forgive. i will definitely feel the pain within me although i may have appeared fine.

it sucks when you know there are so many factors to consider when you are an adult.